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    from pixelspirit

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    I just browsed through all of my draft posts and had a very welcome trip down memory lane


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    from pixelspirit
    My counselor gave me a handout on Grounding and I thought it would be very helpful for some of you. So I'm going to type it out for you guys here.


    Detaching From Emotional Pain (Grounding)

    What Is Grounding?
    Grounding is a set of simple strategies to detach from emotional pain (for example, drug cravings, self-harm impulses, anger, sadness). Distraction works by focusing outward on the external world -…

    (Source: psych-student-in-therapy)

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    Give me the strength and patience to go through today without screwing up the mood less than what it currently is


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    from katawashoujofeels


    I’ll never understand this.

    But I don’t want to see the results because of the fear…

    wat do

    (Source: hero-of-the-day-yyz-2112)

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    from the-ever-changing-me

    "A year ago we stayed up till 3 am talking
    And today I don’t know how to even say hey" ----(via walk-you-home)

    (Source: esssence)

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    from animeintrospection



    General spoiler warning for Monogatari.

    I consider myself a very conditional fan of the Monogatari series. For everything I love about it, there’s something else that I loathe. For that reason, it’s a difficult series for me to talk about. I can’t sing it praises without muttering concessions under my breath, and vice versa. Don’t get me wrong - I consider it a unique and rewarding series, but if your tolerance for gross shit is similar to mine, you’re gonna have to stomach some crap to get there - and that’s if you can even get past the purely aesthetic barrier of entry. You’ll know after one or two episodes whether you can stick around for the whole thing. If the dynamic editing and circular dialogue drives you batty, then sorry, it’s not getting any better, move onto the next show. If you can stomach - or even better, are into - that stuff, then Monogatari can be a rewarding series, especially as it gets going. Nekomonogatari White, the first arc of the latest season, is the first part of it that I can wholeheartedly recommend. It might’ve even justified the series for me.

    Here’s a primer on Monogatari for the uninitiated – first off, it’s extremely love it or hate it, and there’s no guarantee you’ll be able to stand it. Each season is divided into several arcs, which serve as complete stories and are centered around one character. Most of the show’s content consists of various characters (usually Araragi) wandering around and getting into heady, long-winded conversations with people around their town, until they come to a realization about whatever magical being they’re dealing with and are forced to confront it. It’s directed by Madoka Magica’s Akiyuki Shinbo at his absolute Shinbo-est, meaning that the backgrounds are full of abstract shapes, characters contort their bodies for dramatic effect, and edits are interspersed with intertitles that pass by too quickly to read. The writing is similarly flamboyant - this show is adapted from a light novel series by Nisioisin, a popular Japanese author who also wrote Katanagatari and novels for various popular anime, such as JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure and Death Note. He’s writing is known for its clever wordplay, pop culture references, and tendency to go on philosophical digressions. I consider Nisioisin sort of a Japanese Joss Whedon in that his writing really easily tips over into annoyance when it doesn’t have a solid emotional backbone, and that happens several times in Monogatari, most notably during Bakemonogatari’s execrable Nadeko Snake arc. The worst thing about the show, however, is Shinbo’s personal indulgence. I won’t skirt around this - this series caters heavily to otaku, and that means leaning hard on the fanservice. There are a lot of leering shots of the female characters, and while I don’t like them, I accept them in order to access the interesting narrative content… but I have my limits. I can’t stand it when the show goes underage or incestuous, as it often does during the Nadeko Snake arc, most of Nisemonogatari, or any scenes involving Mayoi Hachikuji - even if its for the sake of a “joke” at otakus’ expense. I’ve seen the argument that taboo sexuality in this series represents more general type of intimacy, but I don’t see that. True intimacy should be reciprocal, and every time Araragi’s ferocious and independent sisters Karen and Tsukihi starting cooing over and exposing themselves to their onii-chan, it’s so out of sync with much of their previous behavior that it seems as though they’re being forced to perform at gunpoint. As a woman, it also feels like dynamic characters I’d grown to like and even look up to a bit have been betrayed, and I can’t forgive that. I also don’t think it’s a coincidence that the least interesting female characters in the series, Nadeko and Mayoi, are also the ones whose episodes contain the most repulsive content on average. Other than that, while Araragi isn’t a terrible character, the emphasis on his perspective often feels like a limitation to the storytelling. All of the women at some point bend over backwards to gratify him to the expense of their established personalities. It’s disappointing that a show with so many strong women ultimately makes them all subservient to a man, but what else should I have expected from what boils down to a harem show? Akiyuki Shinbo is a talented artist, but also a disgusting lolicon pervert who needs to be stopped. Blech. This was enough to kill the show for a lot of people, and I completely understand it. You have been warned.

    So when Monogatari’s bad, it’s an indulgent, morally reprehensible annoyance, but when it’s good, it’s one of the closest non-Ikuhara things I’ve seen to the surreal, psyche-penetrating character pieces from Revolutionary Girl Utena. Despite its urban fantasy trappings, Monogatari is really a show about damaged individuals and the mental cages they put themselves in. It’s also the right kind of fantasy procedural in that it makes the magical phenomenon tackled in each arc the manifestation of a character’s psychological issues, thus tying its solution into a larger character piece. It’s sort of like the collective-psyche stuff that happens Paranoia Agent but with an in-universe explanation of MAGIC and not just it all being a creative representation via film. Characters will also have multiple arcs over the course of several seasons, meaning that – again like Utena – their development is allowed to build on itself, progressing in the background until it reaches its next peak. It’s a structure used by a number of harem series, but few use it as effectively as Monogatari.

    Bakemonogatari and Nisemonogatari are structured around Araragi encountering damaged young women and reaching a sort of catharsis with them. Nekomonogatari White consists of the first five episodes of Monogatari S2, the confusingly named third season in the Monogatari series. It’s the first arc where Koyomi Araragi isn’t the POV character. Instead, this role is taken up by Tsubasa Hanekawa, Araragi’s high-achieving, demure classmate and the central character in Bakemonogatari’s concluding arc, Tsubasa Cat. There, her repressed frustrations (including sexual desire for Araragi) come out as a magical split personality, Black Hanekawa, who acts on them at night. When Black Hanekawa attacks Araragi, he manages to seal her away temporarily, although the schism continues to exist within Hanekawa. In Tsubasa Tiger, Black Hanekawa reemerges. She’s less of a menace this time, but there’s another issue - one morning, Tsubasa encountered a giant white tiger on the way to school, and when she arrived home her house had burnt down. With Araragi out on a mission, it’s up to Hanekawa and Hitagi Senjougahara, Araragi’s girlfriend and the subject of Bakemonogatari arc Hitagi Crab, to get to the bottom of this before something really disastrous can occur. Monogatari S2 is the first time one of these women has been allowed the narrative’s complete attention, and it feels just. I actually did not like Hanekawa before this arc, and now she might be one of my favorite anime characters - that’s how dramatically it improves. Before I thought that she was a yamato nadeshiko who existed almost entirely for fanservice and was continually shafted (heh heh) by the narrative. However, her story shone so brightly when freed from Araragi’s gaze that it enraptured me one episode in. It’s been slowly revealed over the past two seasons that Hanekawa was raised in an abusive household and that her placid, accepting demeanor is largely a response to that. Araragi was the only person who paid attention to her, so she developed feelings for him, but didn’t come to terms with them until he’d met and started dating Senjougahara, at which point Hanekawa developed an internal conflict. She longed for Araragi and felt envious of Senjougahara, but she’d conditioned herself never to recognize negative emotions, so they were buried. The problem is, Monogatari’s world is one where mental stress can manifest as supernatural happenings, so Hanekawa soon comes down with a case of demonic possession, her anxieties having manifested as a cat-apparition named Black Hanekawa. Black Hanekawa awakens while her mistress is asleep, takes over her body, and goes out to create mischief. It’s a powerful metaphor for the mental contortions that women perform in order to conform to society’s ideal for them as accommodating, dispassionate beings, and Hanekawa’s story is the most successful subversion of otaku fetish tropes in a series that largely bills itself on that. 




    Nekomonogatari White begins with Hanekawa reevaluating her identity down to her name, which she decides to seize as her own for the first time. She deliberately rebukes Araragi’s perspective of her as a “saint” while substituting her own preferred one as a nuanced individual. All of this takes place in the past tense and is intelligible only to someone who has seen the integration of her “cat, tiger, and human selves” - meaning her repressed desires and resentments with the rest of her personality. The present is conveyed handy Symbolism Roomba, who automatically cleans house in the same way that Hanekawa disposes of her negative emotions.

    Her story also strikes a cord with me for other reasons. Without divulging too much, I relate strongly to Hanekawa’s history of abuse and the symptoms she manifests as a result. I grew up in a tumultuous household, and something similar happens to me. My negative emotions and memories vanish easily, only to return when I’m “triggered,” leaving me in an obsessive, panicked state that lasts anywhere from a few minutes to a full day. It actually does feel like there’s a mental wall cutting something off within me, inaccessible until the moment when I - for whatever reason - land on the other side, at which point only a full night’s sleep can get me back out. I regularly attend therapy that helps me process this condition and take practice measures to understand my emotions. I feel that Hanekawa’s quest in Nekomonogatari White and throughout the Monogatari series as a whole have been towards something similar  - the integration of the dominant and repressed aspects of her personality, as well as acceptance of her needs, emotions, and traumas. Perhaps in spite of the show she inhabits, Tsubasa Hanekawa is now one of my anime heroines, and I can only hope to be as brave as she is in owning her story.

    Monogatari S2 is streaming on Crunchyroll.

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    from ramadanrendezvous
    Ramadan Reflections of a Revert


    **Lissy Mac is a devoted mother, wife, and revert to Islam. She has inspired us with her compassion, motivation, and sincere desire to be in the presence of Allah. (link to her tumblr)

    Salaam and Ramadan Kareem. It’s amazing to me how this Ramadan has come and gone in a blink of an eye and…

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    from keep-it-halaal

    The Prophet (PBUH) said, “Whoever established prayers on the night of Qadr out of sincere faith and hoping for a reward from Allah, then all his previous sins will be forgiven; and whoever fasts in the month of Ramadan out of sincere faith, and hoping for a reward from Allah, then all his previous sins will be forgiven.”

    (Narrated By Abu Huraira. Sahih Bukhari: Volume 003, Book 031, Hadith Number 125.)

    (Source: khushu)

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